“Father, can You take this burden away from me?”
With my hands clasped tightly and my head bowed down, tears fell in fat drops onto my hand while my mind struggled to understand what was happening to my body. I was trembling at the Burning Hearts prayer room as Jennifer Heng asked us to stand in repentance for our lawmakers and leaders for passing the Abortion Bill in 1969.
“Abortion stands for death. Every successful abortion is only successful because there is death.”
Jennifer’s words rang in my head.
“Abortion stands for death. Every successful abortion is only successful because there is death. It is absolute death versus absolute life.”
When I learnt that Burning Hearts has committed every first Wednesday of the month to praying for the culture of life – as opposed to death even before birth – to be established in Singapore, I was ecstatic.
This monthly meeting feels like an answer to the cry of my heart.
“When is abortion justifiable? If our premise is circumstantial, there is no end to the debate. As Christians, our premise is God’s truth. That will not change,” Jennifer continued.
The truth is, an innocent life is lost with each abortion.
Why is building a culture of life the burden of some Christians but not of the Church? Is God not interested in life and death issues? Didn’t He ask the Israelites to choose life, that both they and their descendants may live, to love, obey and cling to Him, for He is their life and the length of their days? (Deuteronomy 30:19-20)
In her work with women who had abortion, Jennifer shared, not one said that their life had become better after abortion. They did not feel empowered, as pro-choice literature would want us to believe. On the contrary, they felt that they had no choice but to abort.
Ours is a Life-giving God. We need to repent of our apathy towards women who are suffering in silence. We need to repent that as a Church, we shirk that responsibility of loving the most vulnerable members of our society: The unborn.
At 5 weeks, your circulatory system is beginning to form and your tiny heart will start to beat.
At 6 weeks, your nose, mouth and ears are starting to take shape, and the intestines and brain are beginning to develop.
At 7 weeks, you have tiny hands and feet.
By 11 weeks, you are almost fully formed. You are kicking, stretching, and even hiccupping as your diaphragm develops.
But somehow, in Singapore, you can still be legally killed up to the point you are 24 weeks in the womb, because we are one of the countries in the world with the most liberal abortion laws.
Since 1970, when the Abortion Bill was passed, how many hundreds – thousands – of babies were sacrificed because of fear, helplessness and benefits? At its peak, in 1986, a total of 23,035 babies – 37.51% of pregnancies in the country – were aborted. More than a third of babies in the womb didn’t get a chance to fight to see the light of life that year.
Is my education, career, reputation or convenience more important than this child in my womb, such that I can sacrifice him to remain status quo?
There is a deafening silence with regard to abortion, not only in Church but also among the ministers. We don’t know how to deal with it.
What happens when a pregnant teenager comes to the Church, seeking help? Will we rain down judgment and let her go away in shame? Or will we embrace her, support her in her difficult circumstances before we say, “Go and sin no more”? (John 8:11)
Someone once asked me, “What is the greatest gift of God in your life?”
For me, it’s this second chance I’m getting at life. I nearly died – that’s another story for another day – but now live in and for Christ.
Maybe that explains why my heart aches at the thought that people might intentionally take their own lives, or the lives of others.
There is a deafening silence in the Church with regard to abortion. We don’t know how to deal with it.
At the prayer room, some of us went up to be prayed over by the youths who were at the prayer room. As a young lady prayed for me, my heart wanted to cry out: “I should be praying that you take over from here.”
My prayer is that more youths will take up the baton in the fight for life. Those of us who say we embrace the commission to spread the gift of eternal life should be passionate about contending for life itself.